I finally, after literally years of trying, managed to start cleaning out my closet and replacing stuff. It's amazing how much of my clothing is either rags, designed for someone a decade my junior, or both. That was a hell of a mental block. But now that I've started I want to do it ALL AT ONCE and it's so frustrating that clothes cost money and ( Read more... )

All week things have been reminding me about the work I don't have to do. Someone asked how it's going being a research assistant instead of a teaching assistant, and if it was nice having so much less work. Which it is, I could be grading ninety exams right now but instead I'm waiting for someone to send me maybe two or three hours of proofreading ( Read more... )

On the one hand, I no longer panic and convince myself I'm going to fail out of school and never amount to anything as a human being every time I have to write a paper. However, I think I've handled the fear of failure by somehow repressing it rather than getting rid of it, because I now get tons of physical stress symptoms instead. Which is ( Read more... )

Replacement car officially purchased! I'm getting a new (!!) Honda Fit, in bright red. It's not going to be here until the end of the month, but the only colors they had on hand were black and grey, which means grey and grey, because everything in Colorado is constantly covered with dust. So I'm waiting, but I will have a new red car! Who'd have ( Read more... )

It's ridiculous how proud of myself I feel when I do normal things like a competent adult. Today's achievements include working on most (but by no means all) of my categories of work, going to the gym, mailing someone something important, paying bills, and not getting appallingly drunk. Oh, and grocery shopping. Really mundane, rock-bottom-basic ( Read more... )

The end of the 1st act of Valkyrie is great, but also hilarious. Our hero--the Mysterious Stranger--and Sieglinda have just fallen in love, and it goes like this ( Read more... )

Good news/bad news time ( Read more... )

Week one survived! With additional dental surgery, to boost the difficulty level. Thank god for Labor Day, the second week of class is an unintuitive time for a holiday until you get to that weekend at which point it seems like the best schedule ever. Whoever put that holiday there, bless you.

Welp, this is it. End of summer. Classes start back up tomorrow. The season of deadlines is upon us. It'll probably actually make me feel better to have more stuff to do and more interaction with people, but on the other hand, my stress level is so much higher during the school year. IDK, I hate dealing with things. It involves, like, energy and

Laid down for a twenty minute nap, didn't wake up for two hours. And was then of course anaesthetized for the next four, because fucking sleep inertia. Luckily I don't think I intended to get too many things done this evening? At least I hope not because they sure didn't happen. I guess I needed the sleep. Sleep has to be one of the scarcest ( Read more... )