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[deliriousminuet]

On the one hand, I no longer panic and convince myself I'm going to fail out of school and never amount to anything as a human being every time I have to write a paper. However, I think I've handled the fear of failure by somehow repressing it rather than getting rid of it, because I now get tons of physical stress symptoms instead. Which is probably preferable, but I still get the occasional symptom left over from the horrible chest cold I psyched myself into during finals a year ago.

You'd think I'd eventually learn to stop procrastinating, write the damn papers, and get it over with. But that would be too easy.