I'm bored and don't know quite how to deal with it. I "quit" my job and now I spend my days at home taking care of the kids, cleaning and cooking, which is great until there's nothing to clean anymore. I should go out, but what for? I don't need to spend money on shopping and I definitely don't want to freeze my ass off. Yesterday I almost went ( Read more... )

And no, I am not kidding ( Read more... )

I skipped work. I don't care if I get fired, no one can make me go feeling the way I feel.  This life has kicked the shit of me. I realize that before I was unhappy thinking that one day I could be with him and never have to part ever again and suffer what we went through. He was my only hope and now I realize he makes me more unhappy than not. The ( Read more... )

I feel like you want me to go to Puerto Rico amd never come back.

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Do you?

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Do you want me to go and not come back?

Yes.

Oh, by the way, he wants a divorce.  So should I except I don't.  I want to believe we can actually work it out even though we've been "trying to work it out" for months and it's been futile ( Read more... )

There's a couple of journal entries I've kept hidden then some I have in my computer but never put them up here. I think ti's time I face the truth hitting me in the face, so here are two I wrote yesterday so they refer to the day before yesterday:

I don’t regret that I was cutting my leg yesterday. What I regret that I didn’t do a good job at it. ( Read more... )

if you wake up to find me dead under your blanket, don't be afraid. it's what i've walways wanted.

I'm going back to Puerto Rico after two years of missing it. First time I arrived in Dublin was January 2005 and now finally I'm going back for two weeks on Jan '07. The tickets are bought so it's starting to feel like it's SO close even when it's 2 months away. IT'S JUST SO FUCKING EXCITING!!! I miss my friends, my room, my family, the hot weather ( Read more... )

I'm at work and I am so bored! Fridays here tend to be really slow. Like, right now the office is empty. Brendan's on holidays, Aisling doesn't work on Fridays (lucky bastard) and John always leaves early. Jim is the only one left and he's out and about (not that I want him sitting at his desk; he sits behind me and that would prevent me from doing ( Read more... )

To make a long story short, we went to Paris after all. Details and the long story will come when I have more time. Right now I'm getting ready to move out of my nice apartment in one of the worst areas in Dublin to a luxurious apartment in the "rich people" area. Don't ask me how we do it, but we're still together.