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I skipped work. I don't care if I get fired, no one can make me go feeling the way I feel. This life has kicked the shit of me. I realize that before I was unhappy thinking that one day I could be with him and never have to part ever again and suffer what we went through. He was my only hope and now I realize he makes me more unhappy than not. The scale has tilted to the other side and he's not the charming prince I thought he was and hope he would remain forever.
Getting on a plane back home on Sunday. As per the post below, I might not board the retun flight after all.
Hedwig, our 4 month old son, my baby guinea pig. He gave it to me for Christmas, and for what if our marriage has been falling apart for months? Now this just has to hurt double. I can't take him with me. I give my heart away and it always proves to be fatal. Having a pet is like having a child. Don't get into it if you feel your relationship with someone is not stable enough that you could see it last.
An observation: we don't even fight anymore. It threatens to happen so often that I have stopped carrying to talk it over. We just begin to disagree and I withdraw. We're both so tired of each other.
Curse my stupid heart.
Getting on a plane back home on Sunday. As per the post below, I might not board the retun flight after all.
Hedwig, our 4 month old son, my baby guinea pig. He gave it to me for Christmas, and for what if our marriage has been falling apart for months? Now this just has to hurt double. I can't take him with me. I give my heart away and it always proves to be fatal. Having a pet is like having a child. Don't get into it if you feel your relationship with someone is not stable enough that you could see it last.
An observation: we don't even fight anymore. It threatens to happen so often that I have stopped carrying to talk it over. We just begin to disagree and I withdraw. We're both so tired of each other.
Curse my stupid heart.