"I am so ashamed of the fuss I'm making, what do you do when things go wrong?"

School is nearing it's end. I love my friends. On the downside, bulimia is awful but I am teething (wisdom) so am trying to reduce purging because it hurts so bad.
Tonight I am playing Sopranos drinking game by myself.
I love you guys, and Nance and. Anneke I am a bit scattered at the moment but your letters are coming. Anneke your card made my

sleeping in hope that certain people - certain, numerous people such as the lovely, beautiful and afflicted SANDY (sunnybeaches) rest assured of, if only my minor opinion, that they are truly beautiful people

i am so alone

a bottle of vino is a teriible awful BAD idea

bad girl]stupid girl\

ugh i am realllllly drunk bottle of wine my heart hurts why a i sto stupid? aone? i am an idot? idiot/... idiot.... idiot... wosh i was dead yuck i am fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat or wish i wias kinda coool... likrsanly ... oterestog

once white teeth now yellowing and listerine won't do anymore; i'm throwing up so much i don't brush for fear of ruining the enamel... irony. at least i don't have to kiss anyone. my breath's a mix of cheap alcohol, smoke and vomit at all times. i feel very loved at the moment, by jessie, still managing to call me in the midst of her year 12 mid ( Read more... )

today i cried a lot, until my mascara ran and my eyes were red and puffy. it didn't help. like every other week, i told my therapist i feel trapped and stuck and lonely. she said it was hard to see me so sad; she's really lovely and genuine, the best therapist ive had yet, i like talking to her. my parents are unhappy with me, they dont trust me, i ( Read more... )

i am very very sad and utterly alone and have no access to alcohol seeing as my mother poured the contents of the liquor cupboard and my stash down the sink. at a loss for what to do at this point

RA RA OHH LA LA RAA RA OHH GAAA GAA i want your loving i want all your revenge you and me could ihave abad romance...he ate my heart he ate my heart instead he was a monster (in my head) he ate my hearrrt ( Read more... )