You know, I think this is the only real journal that I have left. My girlfriend found my last one. I haven't been able to write latly with out fearing that she would find out. so I guess this is where I will I will write. Instead of my actual journal. What a load of crap ehh... I feel like a mess. GOD PLEASE HELP ME.

Recently my life has been full of big choices. Not just my life but the lives of those closest to me. My girlfriend moved back down to Phoenix last night. Not because we were fighting, or because of any problems in our relationship, but because she started taking the new member discussions. She began taking them up here, and when she did I called ( Read more... )

Its Monday again, and I'm at the cline library checking my e-mail. My girlfriend and I decided either just to be friends, or to take it a lot slower. I'm still not sure which one. I want us to take it slow, but I'm not sure that she has the patitents for that. She just got out of a four year relationship, and she was ready to have kids and start a ( Read more... )

This is a letter that I sent to my friend Jenna today. I didn't want to retype the whole thing so I just coppied and pasted it here ( Read more... )

Well here I am in Beutifull Flagstaff, and everythig is great. The weather is nice. I made a prediction that it would snow by yesterday, but it looks like we are not going to get the early season that I thought. I have a meeting today with the lady who gave me my scholarship to go to Spain. She wants to see some of the pictures that I will be ( Read more... )

Ok so most of my classes make sense this semester. Except for that class that deals with Spanish poetry. Let me tell you a little something about poetry if you didn't already know it. As soon as you call someting poetry all gramatical rules and sintax go out the window. Mix in a forigen language and enter the headache ( Read more... )

So it is time to move again. I would start tomorrow if I could. I found a one bedroom attached apartment in a house with a private entrance, private bathroom, and a shared kitchen. Its $440 a month. I also found a bedroom in a house for $250 with a shared bathroom. What should I do? I could move into the bedroom for $250 tomorrow with out a deposit ( Read more... )

So I think I may have found a new place to live, and a solution to my roommate problem. I was apartment shopping yesterday and this punk kid suggested that I rent a room out of a house because it would be cheaper, and I would have a deck and a yard. "Good idea" I thought. So I looked in the paper and sure enough there was a room for rent in a house ( Read more... )

New Years Day is today. Right on. I wish I could snap my fingers on New Years Day and have all of the changes that I want in m;y life come true right then and there. I went to the Gym for the first time in a while. They have a gym at the school in Flag. but the hours are really restricted, so I usually just workout around the house. I need to start ( Read more... )

I think it might be time to move again. I now live with a guy from who the TV personality Kramer was based(lets not go ending a sentence with a preposition now.)(Is now a preposition?)Anyway to move on with things... I have a roommate who will not shut the hell, heck or h$%l, depending on your sensitivities, up. He talks at random and ad nasuem, ( Read more... )