i probably should say something to him & i should probably do it soon.

but i'm way too much of a wuss =x

butterflies lots and lots of butterflies!

it's funny how. one side of your life can be a heavenly abyss.
when the other side, is a big hump of garbage.

hmmm.

have you ever pushed yourself so hard, just to be let down? have you ever felt that crashing feeling in your stomache, when all hope is gone. when all your will power seems tucked away somewhere. when you feel like you've got nothing left ( Read more... )

i'm thinking about getting rid of my cell phone. or getting a simplier plan. sixty bucks a month is getting expensive. i don't know. im stuck with my car for five years. big bummer. bad idea on my part. hopefully this summer i can rack up enough money to pay some more of it off instead of my measly 156 payments/month. dogs went home today, now i ( Read more... )

so, i've realized most of my decisions are bad decisions. but, we all have to learn from our mistakes right? .. this year i've done alot of learning.. but i think with some of the stuff it's a little too late because i've ruined the possibilites of experiencing the company of some other people. does that make sense? .. it makes sense to me.. but ( Read more... )

it's funny, im such a freakin' asshole. change is sometime i say i'll always do, but i never come through. however; i've had the will power to loose a few pounds. mighty nice!. softballs over we lost states. but it's the farthest we've gotten in like 26 years so HOT DAMN. alot of my friends are getting really deep into religion & i can't really ( Read more... )