the wanting is overwhelming and the temptation is heavy. sometimes i'm grateful for the tell tale signs, and sometimes i'm not. 

 tumble to the tone of your tongue
closed to the tremor in my own

silent to my doubt

absent

from your damage.

 i am having a difficult time. it's frustrating and confusing, and i hate how hard it is sometimes. i hate feeling like an annoyance. it feel just like rejection. 

drunk and foggy.
upset and jealous.

can i ever do the right thing

?

 tonights conversation was cut short and uncomfortable ( Read more... )

 I had a lot of trouble today. I don't know why. I'm concerned ( Read more... )

i want to be okay and healthy and happy being healthy ( Read more... )

 i was accepted in chester college of new england. i'm very excited, and was very much doubtful I'd be accepted anywhere. i probably should have applied to more than one school, but i got it. i feel proud of my self, and anxious to graduate, and make money, and and finish everything on time ( Read more... )

what a strange night it's been.
finally through with the terrible landlord.
i love when people can be so nice, and it surprises you.

things are really good.
job is hopefully soon to be had.
come see our festival show,
GOYA.
manchester west high school,
this saturday.

nicolas and i are really great. i couldn't be happier with him.