three days before nicolas broke up with me i told him i wanted to go to ireland with him. he called me his tiny author and told me he loved me. sometimes it is very hard not to miss him. i'm not the person he loves anymore. hopefully, soon, he won't be the person i love, either.
it is going to be a stressful month. but i'm going to college and i'll meet people who are like me, and i'll meet a cute, nerdy guy who likes poetry and anime. and i'll be living with tabetha. i'm excited for the change.
. it makes me cringe when i remember it. i hate wheh boys are insistant even when you say no. i hate that it was my first kiss since nicolas, and it meant absoloutely nothing.
nicolas marini broke up with me today. i have been worried about it for awhile, but it was sudden today. we've bee dating for one year and 9 months. i gave him everything i had, and he broke my heart. i feel exhausted and cried out, but all i want to do is cry.