yeah. i had to leave for several reasons. school. my employer will not let me leave early three days a week for classes that start at 4pm as she did for me the first semester. oh yeah, and then there's my health. the overwhelming stress of 18 months working here and learning how to do my job by trial and error has taken a toll. now, just as i'm ( Read more... )

this is part of what depression feels like ( Read more... )

ok. so it's late...i didn't know *sob*

but the wind is gusting up to 40-50 mph in the mountains where the fire continues to rage. a local firefighter lost his life and three of his fellow firefighters are burned. our local independent tv station had a crew near Julian (a picturesque, popular mountain community built many years ago, primarily of wood, and known for its apples, apple pie ( Read more... )

am listening to local tv broadcast on sandiegolive.com. sounds like the local, independent KUSI. so hard to concentrate on getting any significant work done. Julian is an old, beautiful, community consisting primarily of wood structures and located in the mountains west of downtown san diego. i was up there this spring with a friend when we ( Read more... )

in this morning's sky i could see small patches of pale blue through the smoke that has substituted for air here in san diego over the past few, frightening days of fire. all is well with my family spread out over this and l.a. county to the north. gusty off shore winds are blowing in. the jacaranda branches outside my office window are bending in ( Read more... )

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but i'm back now. didn't recognize the place, i've been away so long and look of the place has changed. hope some of my friends are still here too. *waves ( Read more... )

intelligent, humorous
sweetness to the core
beautiful, enchanting
impossible to ignore

imaginative, soulful
vision to a dream
creative, insightful
easy to esteem

cautious, fearful
yet willing to play
broken, searching
my choice -- to stay

hot shower and a mist
stepping out to a fog
unable to wipe clear
to an image on the mirror

i know who resides in reflection
why try avoid a detection?
if you really must insist
then the mist becomes a bog

but there's nothing to fear
must break loose to be near
to the one who resides in reflection
2nd version of one i wrote months ago about ( Read more... )