today was pretty good.
we had a tasting party in french class.
i made chocolate mousse and cheese puffs that were tres bien, so it was good.

other than that though, i've been thinking a lot.
something is going to occur next monday that is about to make someone's life a lot worse, and it's partly thanks to me.
don't get me wrong: this person MORE than ( Read more... )

life's been just the same lately.
school, home, some friend time, beauty school, and repeat.
nothing's really sent me for a loop lately.
no one makes my heart fall to the floor.
nothing i'm extremely passionate about.
and as much as i hated some of those feelings at times...
i've come to realize i miss them.
i crave it.
excitement, feeling.

i thought at one ( Read more... )

that's me.
taking a bad situation and finding a way to laugh at it.
i love "i don't care"!
i know that's kind of two weeks late, but i tried not to listen to any of the leaked/released singles until folie a deux came out, but i got curious and caved.
and i love it!

but yeah, i guess today was okay.
it was just whatever.
i had a french speaking test today ( Read more... )

ugh, i am so sick.
i've practically lost my voice, and i'm coughing and sneezing constantly.
it sucks fucking balls.
gah.

not much has been on my mind in the past couple of days.
i'm still debating on whether to date one of my exes, and i still don't have a concrete decision.
he's a great guy, but i still don't know if i can handle being with him and ( Read more... )

i swear, i hate people.
not my friends and family, but just most people.
now i understand what some people mean when they say stuff like that they're disgusted by over half of the human race, or that they don't see how we will all survive.
most people in this disaster town, and even most of the world really are mean, unintelligent, and trashy.
and i'm ( Read more... )

i'm confused.
a guy likes me, and i don't know if i like him back.
i kinda want to say yes to him asking me out, but i'm scared that i'll end up feeling differently about it and hurt him again.
i guess i'm going to take things slow for now, but i don't want him to think i'm not interested.
i just want to really get comfortable with him and make sure he ( Read more... )

today was okay.
not perfect, but nothing is.
i'm content.

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well, i think this week will be much better than last.
i got a lot of good news today, and i'm pretty happy.
life has its ups and downs, and finally, i'm learning to just go with the flow and ride it out.
things really do get better if you just give them time.

i've been thinking a lot lately about artistic things.
i have an urge to create and think.
i ( Read more... )

i've realized that i have wasted so much time in denial.
call me the queen of repression.
i can nod and smile and forget like nothing ever happened.
i've lied to myself and others so much that there are things that part of me knows happened that i can't convince the other part of me of.

here's the dirty truth, alright: my regrets are eating me alive on ( Read more... )

that all guys are awful?
because they are.
they talk about girls in really mean ways behind their backs, i witnessed it firsthand today.
not to mention, they lie, cheat, and act like assholes on purpose.
and this is just me learning from other peoples' mistakes.
gah.

i really do want to find a good guy though.
i'm not entirely convinced they exist, but at ( Read more... )