i'm a stitch away from making it, and a scar away from falling apart.
ugh, i am so sick.
i've practically lost my voice, and i'm coughing and sneezing constantly.
it sucks fucking balls.
gah.
not much has been on my mind in the past couple of days.
i'm still debating on whether to date one of my exes, and i still don't have a concrete decision.
he's a great guy, but i still don't know if i can handle being with him and being a girlfriend to him everyday.
it's been so long since i've been in a relationship, i've forgotten how to fall into place and do it right.
i don't want to be a disappointment.
but other than all that, i've just been being my normal self.
school, family, friends, beauty school.
i applied for a job at kmart tonight.
i really hope i get it.
not only will i get some cash, but i'll probably lose weight and learn how not to be so nervous in everyday situations.
when i say that last part, no one ever understands what i mean, but sometimes it's weird for me to pay for things at stores, talk to people i don't know, etc.
this job really will be good for me, i think.
and from what i hear, they need people pretty badly, so i'll probably get hired.
but yeah, right now i am feeling really sick, so i'm going to hit the hay.
peace.