i sorta had plans for today but now i just don't know. ryan asked me during the week to spend time with him today. i haven't heard from ryan in the last 24 hours. that can't be a good sign. then there was a possibility i might go to the show in chesterton tonight with daniel and his friend. that's not happening either. but that's alright ( Read more... )

my sister went back to her lovely college in florida at 7 am ( Read more... )

cigarettes so far: 2 ( Read more... )

cigarettes so far: 0 ( Read more... )

cigarettes so far: 3 ( Read more... )

cigarettes so far: 3 ( Read more... )

cigarettes so far: 2

HAPPY

NEW

YEARS!

**i'm gonna run outside real quick and watch some fireworks.. or atleast attempt to but it's cold!**

alex: its better to burn out than to fade away

gavin: "Fuck"

ryan: shit..this sucks

justine n' cat: we dont know what last words are HAHHA

**i'm so fuckin scared to start the new year alone*

my mom or sister aren't even here. i have no idea where they are, but i'm all alone and i hate it.

cigarettes so far: 4 ( Read more... )

i'm sitting here and realized the things i am most dependent on are friends and cigarettes. i've been thinking a lot considering the new year is only a few hours away. it's about time i get my wants and needs seperated! so here's what i came up with ( Read more... )