i would say i think i'm dying, but i've said that too many times in my life for it to have any meaning.
there was the boy who cried wolf,
i am the girl who cried dying.

I've almost missed this desprate anguish.
almost.
sometimes i wonder if there is no reason for it, if i only feel it because i used to feel it.
like nostalgia of pain.
makes sense, no?

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it's 1:45 in the morning... and i sit at work as dead as being alive will let me be ( Read more... )

I'm listening to this song.. god i love this song.. i always have... and i don't know why..but listening to it now.. part of me is happy... and part of me wants to die. you ever get that urge to just hit yourself in the face... i do... i have it now.. but i can't.. and i wont... i need a ciggarette. I miss Sam... I miss Chris... I miss Saraperry ( Read more... )

about 5 minuets after i walked out of my room this morning, a shelf in my room fell. it had all my picture frames on it.. i'm pretty sure i heard some of them break. that shelf had been stable for as long as i can remember, even when the shelf above it fell and landed on it a few months ago. It was almost ironic, because when i had walked by my ( Read more... )

life is good. and not pretend good. real live good. I saw "Walk the Line" amazing movie... i saw it with a boy, (who i'm finding is also pretty awesome) and a bunch of his friends. Really cool people ( Read more... )

Hello World, Are you still there?? I am... I know it's been a while... but I Am here. I've always been here i suppose. even when i thought i'd left, even when i tried to get away, i never got far. I've always been right here. in this little room, hidden behind these big walls, and these little windows, big enough for the light to get in, but not ( Read more... )

I'm alive... haven't been online for days, because i haven't been able to... moving home... thats cool... whats new.... hmmm..... car accident... woo hoo. im tired... im always tired.... im tired of everything... i'm such a contradiction.. im sad cuz i have no life, but i dont want to hangout with anyone.... cuz im insane... i dont know what im ( Read more... )

I don't even care if i believe you... I just want you to tell me....