im losin my mind......the one person i want to talk to is just blowin me off while eeeeevvvvveeeerrrryyyyooonnnnneeee else is confessin undyin love to me.....y?? maybe its cuz he doesnt want me that i want him or what...............its not right.......y??? so far one person almost proposed to me but i said NO! and then another one has been goin on ( Read more... )

*sigh*

*******FRIENDS ONLY!!!*******

..........LATER!.....

its raining and thundering and i hate thunder....my head is killing me and i feel like a train wreck....how is it possible to have the same haunting dreams everynight, all night....ive got so much shit on my mind that i dont even have anyone to talk bout to....and i cant even say it in words...just shit in my head....

*if we died together would u ( Read more... )

day....yup.....not much to say...ill home till i go to work...and thats bout it....

rolling down the street smokin and sippin on gin and juice.....wit my mind on my money and my money on my mind....

another

hong kong phooey....the number one super guy...hong kong phooey...quicker then the human eye...haha..

chillin wit ash and jt....spring break is soon...

1 yr till i go back to NJ haha....cant wait....

lata!!

yeah im home again....school was boring so i left....instead of leavin today kenny leaves sunday so i get to spend sum more time wit him before he goes back to illinois...i talked to his gf yesterday...kinda...all girls voices sound the same to me....when i gave the phone back to kenny i go..."she doesnt sound like a bad person y would u make me ( Read more... )

as if things couldnt be any fuckin shittier....yeah this whole relationship thing....its not really workin out....when my feelings get hurt once...its very hard for me to wanna stay in a relationship....very hard...i have to fight to keep my feelings stable...but fuck it...i dont wanna care, i dont wanna feel, i hate everythin.....i had a great day ( Read more... )

i dont even know what to say....i think i just wanna go in my room and be alone....for my health class we have to write a paper on what our perfect husband would be like....LAME!!! it sucked but i got it done....

i dont feel like tellin u how i feel anymore so im just gonna go and bottle it all up inside like always...later losers

today in health we were doin a section on marriage and parenthood and it really made me realize that i never ever wanna get married...i barely wanna be in a relationship right now....i dont think im stable enough to be in a relationship....my life makes me depressed all the time....and just bein round people pisses me off...i might start lookin for ( Read more... )