its funny how somebody can slice your heart into tiny little pieces, and you still want them back.

im so sick of this, i've tried everything, i don't know what to do anymore,and i don't know how to deal with my emotions, i want to change this, and i want him to want me back, i want him to fucking miss me. and i don't get how you can spend so much time with somebody and then just fucking drop them, and simply not care anymore ( Read more... )

i cant get him out of my head, theres not a minute of the day that i dont think about him, after all the shit he did to me,a nd all the pain he put me through, all i want is for him to love me.
and i know he never will, and its fucking killing me

oh and i have tonsilitis. its LOVELY.

Dan was the first guy I trusted, I gave him my heart and I put everything into our relationship, he promised me he'de never hurt me, and that he'de always love me and care about me ( Read more... )

dan broke up with me yesterday.

i want to crawl into a hole and die.

It began with the burning of the throat, tingly and sharp but sweet at the same time. Next came the grazing of the skin, the entanglement of the legs. My fingers twirled around the cross, while my pinky brushed against jesus. He’s watching me I thought to myself, and then I thought, fuck it I’m not Christian ( Read more... )

i had two amazing days with him.

i'm in love.

i text him to tell him i'm home, all excited ot see him and he goes "oh im at the game, ill call you when its over"[islander game] the game has been over for like 20 minutes and he hasnt fuckign called yet. he commented some stupid bitch who hits on him all the time and claims "they're soulmates" back on facebook and not me ( Read more... )

we made up, it was a huge misunderstanding, apparently his mom has been yelling at him that he hangs out with me too much, and he didn't know how to tell me that, so he used the other thing as an excuse.
which was fuckign stupid, but hes a little sped, so its alright.

and this should be a good weekend =]

One, my dads an asshole, and after this weekend I've been completely unstable. I hate how im so vulnerable, and how simple things he does remind me of what used to be and all that shit ( Read more... )