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Dan was the first guy I trusted, I gave him my heart and I put everything into our relationship, he promised me he'de never hurt me, and that he'de always love me and care about me.
Now I know how fucking untrue that is, and nothing could hurt me anymore than knowing he never loved me and that he doesnt give a shit about me anymore. He made me lose respect for myself, and the only way I knew how to fix things with him was to fuck, or blow him, and now I realize how wrong I was. I don't know how that became my logic, and I am in shock that I sunk that low. Because its truly fucking pathetic the way I acted. I offered to be his sex slave so that he would stay home with me the night before he went to Florida. what have i fucking become?
Im sick of crying over Dan, I'm humiliated and frustrated with the recent decisions ive allowed myself to make. The way I have lost respect for myself, the way I lost sight of who I was, and the way I allowed myself to be used, and how I became the girl that I hate. I can't believe that I have let someone have such a horrible impact on me, and my morals, and everything i've ever stood for. I am disgusted with myself, and I am so done being a fucking skank. Because I am worth more than that.
Now I know how fucking untrue that is, and nothing could hurt me anymore than knowing he never loved me and that he doesnt give a shit about me anymore. He made me lose respect for myself, and the only way I knew how to fix things with him was to fuck, or blow him, and now I realize how wrong I was. I don't know how that became my logic, and I am in shock that I sunk that low. Because its truly fucking pathetic the way I acted. I offered to be his sex slave so that he would stay home with me the night before he went to Florida. what have i fucking become?
Im sick of crying over Dan, I'm humiliated and frustrated with the recent decisions ive allowed myself to make. The way I have lost respect for myself, the way I lost sight of who I was, and the way I allowed myself to be used, and how I became the girl that I hate. I can't believe that I have let someone have such a horrible impact on me, and my morals, and everything i've ever stood for. I am disgusted with myself, and I am so done being a fucking skank. Because I am worth more than that.