I feel so numb. Everything is falling and crashing around me. I can't believe how screwed up my life is and how depressed I feel. And I'm sorry for all the self pity. I just want to curl up and sleep for weeks. I really need a hug. I'm tired or crying today. Fuck.

soooo...this thing is starting to move and I don't know what to do, or what I want. Somebody tell me what I want damnit! Now!

So parts of this are going to be very vague ( Read more... )

My horoscope says it all ( Read more... )

I was going to write a long venty entry....but my thoughts are so jumbled. The just of it is that tonight was good. It rejuvenated my hopes of....a lot of things. I'm just so happy that there is still such a thing as a simple date with no expectations, because after these past two years I really really didn't think they existed anymore. But its ( Read more... )

Certain things are getting harder and harder to do, or not do or not say I guess is a better way to write that.

I REALLY REALLY HATE BREAKING UP! AND I'M NOT EVEN DATING THIS GUY!!!! Why, WHY, can't he fucking get a clue. I guess its my fult for letting it go as far as it did. But that was before Chritmas!!! I've like been avoiding him for a month! OMG! I don't want to do this, but I have to! GAH....I think I might throwup. I have to go ( Read more... )

If this was your last day on earth, how would you spend it? Who would you want to spend it with?

I am jealous and envious of too many people.
I am scared and uncertain about my future.
I am questioning my faith.
I am praying for and about many things.
I am getting better. I think I was clinically depressed.
I am keeping secrets, but the people I’m keeping them from already know deep in their hearts.
I am not telling somebody something, and it gets ( Read more... )

To be completed by those ADULTS out of high school.

Tired of all of those surveys made up by high school kids?
'Have you ever kissed someone?'
'Missed someone?'
'Told someone you loved them?'
'Drank alcohol?'

Here are some questions for the people who are a little more mature... lol as if posting these bulletins was mature at all...

1. What bill do you ( Read more... )