IMPORTANT entry.

[darknight7884]

So I came to the self realization last night that I am addicted to service--not just the kind APO does, but also the whole being a nice guy type.. and that I need to quit some of it. I realized this as I chose to skip class and the homework so easily to type minutes for APO meetings, when part of me told myself that I really needed to go. Which

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[scarredsoul]

aww, dan :( this is so sad to hear! but it's definitely all true... you are without a doubt the most caring and giving guy i've known here at tech and that says a lot because i choose to surround myself only with the highest quality people. i somewhat feel your pain though, and have gone through a similar issue myself, having to balance work, school, and apo... and apo is the one thing i can't really say no to. i understand the two of the three deal because i've gone through that, having to pick when to work and when to do apo and when to care about school. it never occurred to me to change my status as a brother though because i know even if i went inactive, i would still talk to apo people and still want to help with projects and would probably do more service than most associates, if not some brothers. i've chosen to care less about school and my grades are showing it... i've decided to work less and my bank account is showing it... but all the while, knowing that i need to put it in perspective and get things together, i can

[darknight7884]

First off, thanks for the long reply, its nice to know i have you in my side of the ring. I've taken in your words and of skye's which were much similar. Basically I am going to go Associate next semester instead and since they arent gung-ho about requirements from the beginning, basically I can pretty much try to be "inactive" during the first few weeks and gradually ease myself back into service, all the while seeking counseling to indentify the root of this problem, I dont know what it is, but me and Skye were playing around with ideas of because my dad died, because im bi and seek conformity anyways, because my mommy used to be a alcoholic, but im determined to figure out why. Thanks for being a good friend.. see you in like a half hour.

[tisiphone_ca]

We've already talked, but I'm here for ya if you need me :)

[nildro]

Gosh Dan, I'm really sad to hear all you've been going through this semester. You should never feel bad taking time for yourself, unless you're whole yourself, you can't help others. Instead relax, and ask others for help when you need it. After being there for everyone else for so long...you deserve it.
I don't think anyone in APO would blast you for this. and be assertive about needing time for yourself.
I'm sorry I've been a bit of a bitch this semester. It's not you...it's my assholish way of attaining time for myself. School's been harder on me than most people this semester. Most of the time when I'm in my room I'm either sobbing or doing homework...so don't think I'm locking you out of the party or anything. *sigh*
You are a good friend and a great roomate. Unfortunately right now I've been too stressed to be either, or to recognize the stress you were going through. Sorry buddy.

[darknight7884]

Its okay, after speaking with Skye, I realize that I was not the only one to get the wrath of your busy-ness, it was just not apparent because I saw you two giggling all the time and took it as a personal thing. However, winter break is upon us and I hope you have a good one with minimal busy time and can be happy with certain other Foxridge people. hehe