During freshman year, I remember wanting a wife and kids more then anything else. Everything else didn't matter to me. I wanted to find a girl i could spend the rest of my life with. And that same year, i thought i found that someone, which was my first girlfriend. I never realized what that relationship was doing to me until much after the break ( Read more... )

So, Anah Kim and I are officially through now, I think so anyway. We've been technically broken up for about a week now, but today she got into St. Johns. Her parents are making her go there, So I'm not going to see her probably ever again after college starts. Life really sucks, I'm going to miss her...Fuck ( Read more... )

its a good thing I at least have Greg right now. Otherwise I'd have no one ( Read more... )

Anah broke up with me last night... It was so out of the blue, it was shocking. I'm not going to fight for her back, if she wants to go I won't keep her around. It really hurt. I want to say I'll never get another girlfriend ever again, but I know how that usually goes; I'll end up getting one anyways. Life really blows

To think of how many times I've written in this Journal, and I'm still a bad writer.I don't think it was ever my calling in life though. To think of it, the only thing i was really dedicated to was DDR, but I've even fallen out of that. I'm not really sad or depressed about it. I'm kinda just like indifferent about it ( Read more... )

Life has been okay over the past few months... Anah is away in Florida, I really miss her. It's like i finally found a person that i share core beliefs with. No more worrying about drugs, about cutting, about other guys. I just have her to worry about and care for. She is amazing, i hope i never stop appreciating the way she giggles and laughs at ( Read more... )

Over the past day or two, I have made a major realization. That always focusing in on the bad is what has been bringing me down. Me being so concerned with why I am unhappy, has made me forget how to be happy and has made me forget the times when I was happy ( Read more... )

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If I was to draw a picture

It would be of a little boy
and I will give him eyes of blue
whose only likness can be found in the darkest depths of the sea
and alone in a cave framed with stalagmites
he will cry, and cry

Curled up on the piercing cold limestone
his hair long and his face matured
he will mourn, for the loss of someone close
and his right ( Read more... )

I am so fucking bored. The shore, right now, is a waste of life. It's so boring i'm actually depressed. I actually read a book...WILLINGLY! What the fuck is this shit?

Smart people are begining to annoy me.