Guilty

[darkangel_5238]

     I feel so guilty right now for having suicidal thoughts... I really can't help it most of the time though.  I know there are a lot of people who love and care about me, and that if I did go through with it they'd be devastated.  I guess I realized that moreso today.  I visited my family for the day for the first time in months and months.  I

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[fluffyluggage]

Well, I'm NOT a professional, and I'm just getting to know you, but I for one, would be very upset to lose you, too, if you were gone so soon from my life. However, don't feel guilty for something that you can't control... thoughts and feelings of suicide are not unnatural. Or uncommon. Often they are caused by an imbalance of chemicals in the brain. It's likely that you may need to be on an antidepressant to balance out the chemicals in your body. It's a true medical condition, hun. You shouldn't feel ashamed or guilty or anything like that

[darkangel_5238]

Thanks for the support. Writing and talking does help, and I plan to see a doctor about it as soon as I can afford to. I think a lot of the stress that's been making it worse will disappear once I move to the new place and find a new job. Hope you're having a great week. Talk to you soon. Jessica :)

[fluffyluggage]

Not so much a great week, off an on last week was ok. This week, not starting out so good, but it'll get better, I usually have faith in that, so I'm just counting on it to get me thru. It usually does. I hope you get to feeling better soon. Please know I'm here for you if you need me. My e-mail is published on my profile if you wish to contact me anytime. <3 Jen

[darkangel_5238]

I hope your week does get better. Thanks, I feel better. Finally, moving out today, so that should help a lot with the stress. Jessica :)