I feel so guilty right now for having suicidal thoughts... I really can't help it most of the time though.  I know there are a lot of people who love and care about me, and that if I did go through with it they'd be devastated.  I guess I realized that moreso today.  I visited my family for the day for the first time in months and months.  I ( Read more... )

 I hurt so much inside right now.  I don't know how to handle it.  I slept most of the day away, but I still want to go back to sleep... it's so peaceful.  I have to go to work in a few hours and I think that could be a good thing... I don't want to be alone right now.  I wish this feeling would go away.  I wish my feelings would be somewhat more ( Read more... )