Since I've written anything and because of that or in spite of I'm writing now... Nothing really serious is going on here just the day to day-same ole same ole that's starting to wear me down, but sometimes I think it already has worn me down but I'm just to silly or stubborn to admit it... I miss the slice of life I had before I was forced to ( Read more... )

I hate this place... love my people, but hate this place ( Read more... )

I am soo bored here I can't even begin to think of the words to make anyone understand... To let you know to what degree this place has changed me, I am seriously thinking about trading my 2001 Sebring Coupe for a (dare I say it) minivan... Not a stylish SUV, but a "soccer-mom" mobile... I know what my problem is, I have nothing to do... Yeah I ( Read more... )

It's taken me a month to come to grips with the fact that my mom isn't just on a trip... or a honeymoon...(can you believe she never had one of those or ever rode in a plane??) that she is gone and I along with my brother and sister are left here to make sense of it all.... I'm still trying to make sense of the senseless, when will I learn?? Well ( Read more... )

I am so beyond pissed at this very moment... I'm trying to learn to control my tounge to keep peace, but Lord knows it is hard... I understand as a child of my mother that my opinions aren't always going to be popular... but I would expect them to be as respected as those other's give... Now to be told I shift blame or to be talked down to, ohhh ( Read more... )

Nothing is really happening today... I feel like I'm watching the world move around me and I'm just standing still ( Read more... )

Last night I had a dream that my cousin (the one that was shot in February) wanted to hold my baby... He had come in my room and stood over my baby's bed... When he realized that she wasn't in her bed, he woke me to ask where she was... I told him she was with me and to leave... he said that all he wanted do was hold her just one time... After I ( Read more... )

I'm actually starting to get butterflies in my belly about going to FreeVerse tonight... I'm taking my Pumpin (Mahogany)... Of course I'll be leaving extra early but that's the only way I'll EVER get to go... I've started a piece but it's no where near to the point where I'm ready to perform it... I almost feel like I'm going to see an ex after a ( Read more... )

Okay... the last three entries were a bit censored... self censored but today I'm wearing my coat of truth so here it goes ( Read more... )

Still, steel, steal... same sound yet each has it's own meaning but somehow each has a place in my life ( Read more... )