it's interesting to see how i can be so sure of somethings and with the passing of time and the inviting of events, everything i thought wouldn't be, is.

i'm happy.

and i knew all along. i was aware of the result to come. the yet to be. i've accepted you as you are, and because of that i am unable to settle. i'm sorry. you should be sorry. i will miss you more than you know. we are silly crazy and i will miss wrestling and carrying. mostly. we are just too different. better off as friends. better off as though ( Read more... )

it is exactly 3:17am and i have 9 more pages to write.

i also have a bio quiz tomorrow.

i've had 2 cups of coffee.

i'm listening to Priscilla Ahn and sparklehorse....and i'm falling asleep.

Sleep...Mmmm.

if you know anything about me at all, you know that i have a fierce lack of communication towards others. i have never felt comfortable with anyone to truely express. it's nothing against anyone, its a personal conscious choice that i'm fully aware that i'm making. so to those who take in offence, i'm sorry. i'm sorry if you feel that because i don ( Read more... )

some people (plural) need to SERIOUSLY leave me alone. i don't even feel sorry for you anymore and i'm completely and utterly annoyed at your urgency to get a hold of me. just leave ok. leave me alone. i am not intrested in "haning out", "chillin', "grabbin a bite to eat" etc ( Read more... )

sometimes when i get upset i say things i don't mean. or i guess i meant them at the time and then realize after the kind of affect it has...and then i wish i hadn't said anything.  i'm sorry. i miss you terribly.

i'm sorry i didn't trust you. i do. i promise.
i'm sorry for thinking it was december and may all over again. its not at all. one bit. 
i ( Read more... )

McCall.
boats.
SWIMMING!
cliff jumping.
washington apples.
new friends.
condo on the lake.
holding hands.
fireworks on the lake.
the beach.
walks.
sleeping.
not sleeping.
mario 2.
dates.
dinner.
panda.

the neurolux ( Read more... )

I found my flight. 
this is how it goes:

I Depart from Salt Lake on July 12th.
Arrive in Houston, TX. Hang out in Houston for 2 hours.
Depart Houston to Panama City, Panama. Hang out in Panama for a little over an hour. 
Depart Panama and arrive in Cali, Colombia.

I leave Cali on Aug 4th and head to Panama City and once again, hang loose. 
I leave ( Read more... )

i feel as though i sometimes drift. drift from the things i consciously know i should rather be doing. sometimes i do things. somtimes i think things i do, i  will regret later, but out of spontaneity i do otherwise. and luckily i haven't regretted anything yet ( Read more... )