i'm gonna start working out. i want my ass to be shapelier. 2-3 times a week is a good start.

being back at school is lovely. my new room is clean and spacious and i can do what i want in it. rooming with justine is most def a great great great thing. seeing all my friends here makes me extremely happy...this break was so strange...the first half was amazing...seeing all mt old friends and my old hangouts and everything...i know my best ( Read more... )

i'm sick. i vomitted. then blacked out in the shower. it was scary. then later i vomitted again. i do not like this. but i'd rather be sick here then sick at school. so i can look on the bright side. my mom picked out a psychiatrist in dc for me to go to. i hope i can actually talk to this woman. it would be pointless for me to go spend time ( Read more... )

She says all the things you never want to hear ( Read more... )

my parents did not want to leave me alone at all today. i think they are afraid of me or something. so, we played trivial pursuit. and watched the movie bully. if you haven't seen this film, i advise you do. it's directed by larry clark...he directed the movie kids. and this movie is quite a bit more graphic. raw sex, full frontal nudity, lots of ( Read more... )

my parents found out about some things. they want me to see a doctor. they want me to be happy and don't understand why i'm not. ohhhhh bother ( Read more... )

while i was sitting at the dmv today, lamenting life. hating the fact that i had been so apathetic for not getting my permit two years ago when all normal teenagers are anxious and excited to get behind the wheel, something very sad happened. an adorable half black half white little girl got her hand caught in a door. she had curly blonde hair, ( Read more... )

has anyone ever died of boredom before? if not, i will surely be the first. i am so fucking tired of doing nothing all day. its bringing me down. i sleep till 12, go tanning and run errands with my mom, eat dinner, go to sleep, wake up at 1, watch nick at night till my eyes bleed, and then sleep some more i can't even play guitar on account of the ( Read more... )

i finally got my driving permit. FUCK YES.

maybe in another 2 years ill start working on getting my licence.

i do alot of drugs. and lately, i've been thinking about why. i tried shrooms, e, and coke in the summer before junior year, and decided that it wasn't really for me. i stuck to drinking and smoking pot for pretty much all of highschool. but then college came. and i went insane ( Read more... )