boredom
has anyone ever died of boredom before? if not, i will surely be the first. i am so fucking tired of doing nothing all day. its bringing me down. i sleep till 12, go tanning and run errands with my mom, eat dinner, go to sleep, wake up at 1, watch nick at night till my eyes bleed, and then sleep some more i can't even play guitar on account of the fake nails on my fingertips. i don't know how my mom does this. shes here, with no friends, just like me. but she somehow has managed to quell her boredom. maybe she's taking happy pills and hasn't told me. surely thats the only thing that would stop my suicide attempts if i didn't know i was going back to d.c in 8 days.
the notorious bettie page is a great movie. i love her. and did not know she became a preacher. she's so beautiful. i wish i was a pin up girl. and people just fawned over my looks and took pictures and loved me. shes just so perfect. she almost makes me want to dye my hair brown. almost. maybe in my next life i'll be blessed with the beauty to be a model. or maybe i'll just get plastic surgery now.
i had a dream that my nipple piercing somehow shifted...and my boob, not my nipple, was pierced instead. it was enough to freak me out quite a bit. i forgot about the nightmares i used to get... t.h.c stops/reduces dreams...and since i'm not smoking pot & am eating different foods i've been having nightmares like woahh. blehh. hopefully sleeping pills will slow down these dreams.
i've decided that degrassi is a mirror image of my life. i'm manny santos. not that i'm a hispanic chica with dreams of stardom on the silver screen...but there are many parallels to our lives. well, maybe i'm some combination of both her and ashley...ashley is a musician that dated craig, shes very sad and tragic. but sweet and caring. and manny is an attention whore who is unsatisfied with her appearance, and uses sex as a weapon to get what she wants. manny is dating craig now. craig is a bipolar rockstar with a recently developed coke habit. he cheated on ashley with manny...dated manny...then went back to ashley & went a little crazy and proposed to her at her dad's gay wedding...and now is with manny again. the connection is clear. i think the degrassi writers need to get the fuck out of my life. or i should find something better to do than analyze my life to the point that i compare it to canadian teen soap operas.
full house was a good show. but i fucking hate kimmy gibbler. she brings d.j down. not that d.j is a prize. i mean, its clear that steve lowered his expectations to be with her. but shes alot better than kimmy. i always wanted to live in the tanner household. mostly cause uncle jessie is such a hottie. but i always wanted a big family to hang out with. if i had 2 sisters, 2 awesome uncles, an aunt that is young and hip, 2 adorable little cousins, AND bob saget for a dad, i'm sure i wouldnt be this bored.
ughh. let me out of this house.
the notorious bettie page is a great movie. i love her. and did not know she became a preacher. she's so beautiful. i wish i was a pin up girl. and people just fawned over my looks and took pictures and loved me. shes just so perfect. she almost makes me want to dye my hair brown. almost. maybe in my next life i'll be blessed with the beauty to be a model. or maybe i'll just get plastic surgery now.
i had a dream that my nipple piercing somehow shifted...and my boob, not my nipple, was pierced instead. it was enough to freak me out quite a bit. i forgot about the nightmares i used to get... t.h.c stops/reduces dreams...and since i'm not smoking pot & am eating different foods i've been having nightmares like woahh. blehh. hopefully sleeping pills will slow down these dreams.
i've decided that degrassi is a mirror image of my life. i'm manny santos. not that i'm a hispanic chica with dreams of stardom on the silver screen...but there are many parallels to our lives. well, maybe i'm some combination of both her and ashley...ashley is a musician that dated craig, shes very sad and tragic. but sweet and caring. and manny is an attention whore who is unsatisfied with her appearance, and uses sex as a weapon to get what she wants. manny is dating craig now. craig is a bipolar rockstar with a recently developed coke habit. he cheated on ashley with manny...dated manny...then went back to ashley & went a little crazy and proposed to her at her dad's gay wedding...and now is with manny again. the connection is clear. i think the degrassi writers need to get the fuck out of my life. or i should find something better to do than analyze my life to the point that i compare it to canadian teen soap operas.
full house was a good show. but i fucking hate kimmy gibbler. she brings d.j down. not that d.j is a prize. i mean, its clear that steve lowered his expectations to be with her. but shes alot better than kimmy. i always wanted to live in the tanner household. mostly cause uncle jessie is such a hottie. but i always wanted a big family to hang out with. if i had 2 sisters, 2 awesome uncles, an aunt that is young and hip, 2 adorable little cousins, AND bob saget for a dad, i'm sure i wouldnt be this bored.
ughh. let me out of this house.