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Day 58: Arts & Crafts (Fourth shift)

Aug 30, 2011 12:49

Firo was glad to see the end of lunch, if only for the fact that in a few more hours, the day would be over. Night was the only time he had any real freedom of movement, and it was the only time he could do something worth doing, instead of just sitting around ( Read more... )

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zack_fair August 30 2011, 21:13:53 UTC

It was possible that Zack had just run whatever hint of an alliance that he'd had with Lightning right into the ground, and all because he'd been trying to return to her the kindness she'd extended to him. Still, he couldn't say that he wished he'd gone about it all differently. Zack didn't like lying, especially not to people who he considered on his side. Sometimes he wasn't the most forthcoming with information, but that hadn't been the case this time ( ... )

wantsyourzex August 31 2011, 09:51:06 UTC

[care for a brainwashed ZEX?]So he'd found someone he could hang on to during the night time, but that left the rest of the day worryingly support free. Max hated this feeling. The staff didn't seem that concerned about him, most of the other people around him didn't notice him... he wasn't used to not being the center of someone's attention. If Dexter was here then he would have gladly clung to him instead, maybe insisted that he make him something stupid and silly looking like a friendship bracelet, but he wasn't here. He was waiting outside this place for him to finally be sane enough to come home ( ... )

zack_fair August 31 2011, 17:52:33 UTC

[Certainly!]Having his name called out cheerfully from over his shoulder caused Zack to pull away from the cabinet full of crafting supplies and glance over to ( ... )

wantsyourzex September 2 2011, 01:12:48 UTC

"It's nice to see you too!" Max tried not to sound too excited. It was always nice to see a friendly face. "Glad that you're alright and that you're still here. You never know with this place, right?" He laughed, nervously. God, his social skills had deteriorated so much while he'd been trapped here. At least ZEX had never felt this self-conscious. "I'm doing... I'm doing alright, I guess. I'm a bit more, uh... 'here' than usual, I guess." He rubbed the back of his head, still feeling awkward. Why was it so difficult to get a sensible sentence out of his mouth? He'd spent way too much time here ( ... )

zack_fair September 2 2011, 03:10:20 UTC

Was it just him, or did something seem off here?

ZEX was acting friendly now, which was all fine and good, but he wasn't going on about the stuff that he had before. About the VUX versus humans, about how he loved admiring human bodies but didn't enjoy being in one -- not to mention the blatant flirting.

Instead, he was acting like a fairly regular but somewhat nervous guy. And there was nothing wrong with that, obviously, but it didn't seem like ZEX. Zack frowned, trying to piece it all together. It was hard to sort through everything when the man was stumbling over his words and revising each thing that he said. ZEX had always talked a lot, but he'd had his thoughts in order a lot more than this before.

"... More 'here' than usual?" he asked with a tilt of his head. "What do you mean by that?" It was the most telling part of what he'd said and also the most mysterious, so that was probably the best place to start.

wantsyourzex September 3 2011, 02:19:44 UTC

Shoot, Zack was giving him a look. Had he said something wrong, or was Zack expecting ZEX instead? Sure, he wasn't ZEX at the moment, but Max wasn't such a bad replacement, right? The thought made him both annoyed and almost jealous of his alternate self, as well as a little depressed. Most people probably did prefer ZEX... ZEX had himself together. Max was stuck hereAs false as he knew ZEX to be, he still seemed so real. Realer than he was sometimes. Ugh, wasn't this place supposed to get rid of all these complicated feelings ( ... )

zack_fair September 3 2011, 21:53:00 UTC

At first, ZEX's words didn't do anything to help Zack understand what was going on. He remembered more than usual? From what he'd been able to tell, ZEX had had a lot of things to talk about regarding his life; he hadn't seen any signs of amnesia or memory loss, so what had changed?

But when the man went on to talk of ZEX in the third person, everything suddenly slid into place in Zack's mind and he had to fight to keep the surprised look off of his face.

If he remembered correctly, he'd heard about something like this happening right around when he'd first arrived in the institute. It had probably happened right before he got here, where people had suddenly been brainwashed into thinking that they were the person who the staff called them.

This was the first time that Zack had been exposed to it, and he found himeslf strangely disappointed that it wasn't really ZEX who he was talking to right now. Sure, the guy had been weird, but he'd seemed a lot more real. Still, there was no reason to say that and upset him when he was ( ... )

wantsyourzex September 4 2011, 02:08:36 UTC

That look probably wasn't good. Zack probably wasn't happy to hear the news that Max was better now, however one defined "better", and really Max couldn't say that he was exactly happy about it himself. He didn't really feel better... he just felt self-conscious and stupid. And homesick. Going home and just sleeping for a day or two sounded really good right now ( ... )

zack_fair September 4 2011, 03:31:15 UTC

Man, this was weird. Zack was doing his best to keep a neutral expression as the conversation continued, but it was bizarre to be speaking to the same guy he'd interacted with a few times already... except that it wasn't him anymore. His tone of voice, his mannerisms, all of that had changed and it was enough to get under his skin.

He didn't want to make things worse by reacting badly, though, and so he tried to follow along with what Max was saying, even as part of his mind kept hammering in the fact that this wasn't a real person. It was a figment, something made up and forced upon ZEX for some unknown and disturbing reason ( ... )

wantsyourzex September 5 2011, 02:23:31 UTC

Max had a feeling that things were only getting worse. How could he fix this? He really didn't want to lose one of his friends here just because he was lucid for once... it wasn't fair that that would even happen! Sure, maybe he wasn't exactly the same person anymore but ( ... )

zack_fair September 5 2011, 21:11:12 UTC

It seemed like Max was just getting more and more uncomfortable as the conversation continued, which was probably due to the fact that Zack was acting strange. Still, how could he not? He hadn't signed up for this and he was in no way prepared for it. If there was one thing he was good at, though, it was putting on a smile and acting like everything was okay ( ... )

wantsyourzex September 6 2011, 03:21:22 UTC

"Oh, yeah, of course." Max was happy to call him whatever he liked, but Lance and Zack both sounded like fairly normal names... it was hard to tell which one was the alternate personality and which one was real. Max and ZEX made it pretty clear. Then again, maybe it wasn't any of his business anyway... but it was hard not to feel a little alone if he was the only one who remembered who he really was ( ... )

zack_fair September 6 2011, 19:09:16 UTC

That had been simple enough, at least. Zack didn't really get why Max had asked for the alternate name when he was happy to call him by either one, but maybe he'd just wanted to make sure that the other patients also had these other identities. Zack wasn't going to dwell too much on it. He'd satisfied Max's curiosity and that was good enough ( ... )

wantsyourzex September 7 2011, 05:11:15 UTC

At least Zack hadn't laughed at him about how he felt. It was kind of ridiculous... feeling this way about someone he'd just made up in his head. Being aware of it like this, that made it less crazy though. Definitely.

"Yeah... something like that." Max smiled at Zack, a much more natural looking one than usual. He understood! "I don't know, my life was... not what I wanted it to be. He had a... well, I don't know if I'd say better, but... it was his. You know? I don't even know if mine was mine..." That sounded stupid. "Uh, if that makes sense."

He looked down again, now feeling somewhat guilty. "I probably shouldn't be keeping him waiting at home... I shouldn't be here anymore. I don't know how to get out of here though. No one seems to listen to me here. Well, except you of course." Max looked back up at him and smiled again. Friendly, of course. Not that he was implying something. That was ZEX, not him.

zack_fair September 10 2011, 04:04:34 UTC

A life that wasn't his. Zack didn't know what Max meant specifically, of course, but he could at least understand the concept. He had always tried to make his own way, but in the end he realized that Shin-Ra had owned him to a large extent. Angeal had fought for freedom and paid the price. Zack realized that he had, too. Wings to fly, and yet the only real release was death. It was all far too morbid when he was busy trying to console a made-up person ( ... )

wantsyourzex September 11 2011, 10:09:13 UTC

"Uh, well..." Max tried to think back. His memory seemed to have suffered somewhat while he'd been here... even when he was ZEX, it had gone a bit spotty. That, and maybe he was trying to avoid having to put it into words so quickly. The whole thing was very complicated. Really. "Just... my parents wanted me to marry someone... I didn't want to, but I didn't... it sort of wasn't my choice, at that point..." Did he look as awkward as he felt saying that? He wasn't very good at self-reflection. "Lot of stuff was that way for me ( ... )

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