I wish i didn't need money so i could run away.... i'm 11 weeks pregnant i need a place to live and the father wants nothing to do with me... i dont want to go home but it might be my only choice... wish i had a direction to go. someone to help me something... this really really sucks and i can't deal anymore.im 20 what the fuck am i thinking?

i want my mom....

i feel so alone disconnected and all... it sucks
I think for April Vaca i'm going to try to head out to cali... i don't know what i'll do or who i'll see but i'll get there... maybe live on the streets for a week who knows...

today was the worst day ever...well last night was into today and now today is the continuation of the suckiness...

i'm

This experience has changed me
i'm colder now
more judgemental
less friendly

but not bitter

not easily ammused

cautious.

i'm feeling things i haven't felt before

i was stupid for thinking i needed him
i dont
i'll find someone better
nicer
hotter
smater
funnier
less abusive
he'll miss me
or he wont I DONT care

just let me pretend

I HATE HIM ( Read more... )

I just tried to fall asleep
and i couldn't
insted i just cried

why do i feel like this?

make it stop

I Tear my heart open i sewed myself shut my weakness is i care too much and the scars remind me the past is real i tear my heart open just to feel ( Read more... )