Life is boring. What am I doing with my youth.

Something's coming. I got my eye on the horizon.

I feel like a sucker.

I don't miss them anymore. They are less than memories, less than ghosts. I see pictures, ache with surprise at how five years passed and I haven't moved. Am I still lost in the desert? No, I think not. Now I am just lost. When I was a child I looked at my future the way I looked at beautiful women, the way I looked at my mother. Now that's ( Read more... )

I haven't been this tan since I was a kid. I'm scared I'm becoming tanorexic.

Blueberry picnic today. Gayballs.

I don't know what just happened to my life. I feel stupid for allowing Sam to become such a huge part of it. There's a void I can't even bear to look at yet. I hate to admit how awful this feels. Secretly and fantastically I keep looking for a way to forgive him and make this okay but we can't go back to Saturday afternoon. He will never be my ( Read more... )

Dar's back! Everything's right again.

I'd like to get outside of my own head for just one day. I hate how redundant my life and thoughts have become.

Everything's got a feeling of rightness again, I'm suddenly not embarassed to be American.

We got real happy drunk and jumped into a freezing pool.

Neil Young on Tuesday!

I feel like Autumn gets me really appreciating all the small things. Taking Scarlett to the beach, watching leaves fall off the trees, finding my old favorite sweater. Cookies, scary movies, Autumn smells. I don't know, I've just been in the best mood lately.