... and I am hopelessly home alone again. And I'm pretty sure nobody reads these. Yet I continue writing anyways. Its therapeutic to me, b/c for fucks sake a little or a lot of therapy can't hurt somebody like me ( Read more... )

Barrett visited me for my birthday and was here for a week....amazing...amazing...amazing ( Read more... )

I have been living in San Jose since the end of April and I feel I have accomplished relatively nothing. All my wild hopes of being hired somewhere fun and meaningless have gone right down the drain, only to be replaced with the cold reality of needing any job, anywhere. My stack of bills grows by the day, gnawing away at the back of my mind yet ( Read more... )

I have finally started meeting people here in San Jose. Well, people that share the same interests I do, anyways. My little sister and her best friend don't count as meeting people. I would have to know them by default whether I lived here or not. Haha, and take a big guess where I was tracked down at to come out and meet these people? The life ( Read more... )

i'm back....moved most of my shit to San Jose and have got my place set up like I want, with internet and stuff. I'm missing Barrett quite a lot though....its painful but I'm willing to deal. How often in life does someone who just gets it, and gets you, fall into your lap and love you? not often...and even less often do you fall in love with him ( Read more... )

so when i move i have to leave like ALL of my furniture here. its a daunting task, but nothing thats making me sad. I look around and realize that these are just a bunch of big things I had accumulated over these past few years to fill up whatever space I was living in. I don't really have an attachment to much of it, and with the amount I've been ( Read more... )

So a few new things I guess ( Read more... )

I've been slacking on this, and I know I really should do it more often because writing always always helps me. Anyways, so many things have happened to totally change my life in these past couple of months and I really think I'm going through one of the toughest times ever right now ( Read more... )

So after a bunch of research into the subject, a lot of gagging at what I found out, and a couple of expensive trips to the grocery store, I have completely rid my life of meat. Most dairy too...I don't eat it any more on purpose, but you'd be surprised how many products have milk in them. Tricky little food companies ( Read more... )

seriously I get so peeved when people cannot take the time to pronounce a word correctly. The word is ValentiNes, not ValentiMes....and NucLear, not NucUlar. Its pretty bad when the elected leader of the free world cannot be bothered to correct that one in his own speeches. It makes me want to puke and throw the closest object I can find at the TV ( Read more... )