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House Keys: A Note to R & K
I left my house key sitting on the floor last night, the same one I gave to you when you watched the house for a couple of days ( Read more... ) -
A Memory: Geoff & Bailey
A memory came drifting to me through the ether last night. I haven't thought about it in years. We had ice storms that winter too, and I wound up iced into my promoter Bailey's apartment along with his flatmate Geoff. I had been flirting with Bailey almost non-stop for months, but because of the work connection he always stopped at a goodnight kiss ( Read more... ) -
Headspace (2)
Communication hasn't been great since I got home ( Read more... ) -
Depression. Again.
Meet my depression.
Two weeks.
Every morning for two weeks now, I wake up wanting to give up. To cry. To quit.
I am not sleep deprived. I do have a cold, as a result I am surprisingly well-rested.
I am not hungry. I have been cooking healthy meals at night, and eating loads.
I have been getting my exercise and taking my meds.
But I wake up wanting ( Read more... ) -
Tumbling
Driving home from another exhausting study session.
I miss you.
I want to hear your voice.
I want to share a funny story.
I want to hear you laugh.
It's late enough, you should be able to talk.
I call.
Things went sideways at work.
You're busy, can't talk.
Call you later.
K. Bye.
There it is ( Read more... ) -
An Expiration Date
An Expiration Date.... what does that even mean?
Well, like most things I wind up writing about: it kinda depends on the person and the context.
I don't generally enter into relationships with a "forever" mindset ( Read more... ) -
Headspace
I just... can't.
I'm a swirling ball of illogical emotion.
Rage, straight past tears, to overwhelmend and unable to move.
One minute I want to cry.
The next I want to punch something.
The next I feel completely alone.
Then suddenly I'm bored.
I have so many different things swirling through my brain right now ( Read more... ) -
Sadness
I find myself overwhelmed with sadness, tears, grief ( Read more... ) -
Honesty
Why do I do this to myself? I let my guard down, I trust, and I am taught time and again not to ( Read more... ) -
Portland
I just had the most thrilling conversation with Portland, completely by accident.
We've been texting all night, good conversation, good mood, and I was just about to hit send on a text about a hot tub when he called.
Despite the years, we've never actually spoken on the phone before. It happens.
Holy shit, he is absolutely adorable! I mean we've been ( Read more... )