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I just got home...
It has been weeks since mama and papa left.
I thought all will be more relaxed but I have not thought this through enough. It was worst than I thought it was...
I do all the house chores and no one seemed to help considering that I also want to do stuff I want however I am impelled to work or else the house will be in shambles.
I thought to myself ( Read more... ) -
Shrug it off!
It seems (and from the looks at it) that I will never get a corporate job from having an extensive experience as a teacher.
So, just to get over the "I do not have a job sheesh", my mom's friend recommended me to an ESL online teaching. the word TEACHING gives me the creeps! But I have to bear in mind that this small sacrifice will help me develop ( Read more... ) -
Ikigai...
Today, a very close friend of mine got promoted! I am so happy for her ( Read more... ) -
Keeping up with liquidity
Oh well.
Anyways I never get to be more open to people so might as well talk here (the irony of me being an introvert haha).
So, that 'dream job' didn't happen. It was actually a Researcher job. I was a bit depressed, but at the same time I had thoughts like "who am I thinking? I have zero idea what they do there..." The thought was a double edge ( Read more... ) -
Anxious and Manifesting
Hi!
It's been a while.
A lot has been happening lately, and again I can't help but be anxious with a lot of things.
First, my functional written test will be tomorrow. I am so anxious because the job that I would be taking is my dream job!
Thus, I am hoping and praying that I get it. I have never told a close soul what that job is for I am afraid I ( Read more... ) -
Mental Health Update
I have been in denial until today.
All I thought was whenever I am at work and my panic attacks are severe, I usually hit myself or slap myself in the face to refocus. At times when it is just too tough, I cry out of nowhere.
Today, that happened. I found out that our lazy co-worker, who left the school in the middle of the school year, acted as a ( Read more... ) -
Self-cleansing
I have been sick for weeks. I have not really went to see a doctor yet but for sure I am not physically sick.
Work has been pilling up, students being bitches and brats, some co-teachers ain't helping, family life isn't going well, and a pitch black future - this is how my life is now.
Even if I tried to hang out as much as I can on X - my happy ( Read more... ) -
Safe or not?
okay I decided LJ shall be my "me" platform (always hahah)
anyways so March seem to be a tad near and I'm a bit scared.
I would like to say my path is good, which is to finish my MA, but with the current political situation, I always pray that my brother supports me on this.
I am also thinking about setting up a small food business - you know fried ( Read more... ) -
Life updates
A lot has happened lately.
First is I got the courage not to renew my contract.
Next is I got hired as a college instructor but turned it due to my contract.
Lastly, my future is uncertain.
Apparently, due to some brimming mental health issues (which I am not diagnosedbut apparently amalways angry for no good reasons, amd lots of morning headaches too ( Read more... )
