I'm sitting in the room, alone, crying. Why? I wish I knew. I DO know, but it doesn't make sense. I just had a great night with a friend at her bachelorette party, but I left feeling sad. I mean, here she is, getting married, and I'm so happy for her, but part of me feels so damned envious. Not that she's getting married, but that she will have her ( Read more... )

Words hurt. I never thought about it much, but hearing stuff from people you thought were your friends hurts like Hell. I pretend it doesn't matter, but now, I'm sitting here crying like a fucking idiot. Sure, they say the obvious, but does that make me a bad person? I just hate being hated.... I don't even feel like living anymore. I just wake up ( Read more... )

resorted to doing a survey. I stole this one from

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I couldn't sleep,so I decided to browse my friends' journals and myspaces for awhile. Well SHIT, now I REALLY won't be able to sleep...look what i found ( Read more... )

Has your heart ever been torn in two? Have you ever wondered if you should be following your heart or your head? Yeah... I'm in that kind of a place right now... >.Aside from my own bullshit, I wanted to post a prayer request. I work at an afterschool program and 2 of the children we care for just lost their mom to a long fight with cancer. She ( Read more... )

So we found a 3 bedroom condo in Brea. Awesome, right? Right... except... now we might not get it because of the deposit money. -sigh- My parents are going to beg the landlady to let us wait another week to get the money because we had to pay extra at the apartments we still live in to be able to stay here until the 16. Sheesh. Anyway, I should be ( Read more... )

I can't stop crying. I can't handle this anymore. I don't knwo what to do. I seriously don't. My life is about to just be over. We have so little time left to find a place and so far... NOTHING. People keep telling me to put my faith in Him, and things will be ok, and I do put my faith in Him, but I still can't stop worrying. I'm so scared about ( Read more... )

Here I am again... another night alone, crying. I'm so overly stressed, it's insane. I don't know what to do. I might become homeless again. I'm freaking out. We have like 15 days left, and nothing is packed, and we have nowhere to go yet. I have tried to help, but my help just gets pushed to the side and I get yelled at for bothering. What am I ( Read more... )

Grr, I just wrote this entry, but the computer I'm using at work froze and I had to turn it off without saving. -sigh- Lemme try and rewrite this now...

I've been gone for almost 4 days, and I come back to 0 comments and 1 legit E-mail. The love I get is overwhelming. -sigh- Anyway, in case any of you were wondering where I was... I was at Girl ( Read more... )

I love making lists. They make things feel so... organized. Especially in this chaotic place I call home. So here I go... making another list... or two... or three.. hehe ( Read more... )