Damn it, I need to use this thing more

[cunninggod]

Within the last week or so, a couple of people that I follow on here started posting again.  I really need to do the same.  Shit is swirling around in my head, and sometimes I can't make heads or tails of it.  I've done a couple of private posts, and that has helped somewhat.  Therapy has helped me a lot, and now with the upcoming one year

Comments

[onyxangel]

It's good to see you back on here as well :) I hope it helps to post - even if it's just fluff stuff like me ;)

[cunninggod]

Thanks :)

[cunninggod]

I will keep that in mind...a guys night sounds like a grand idea

[dreams_in_reds]

I read it and I do care.

[cunninggod]

I appreciate that, I'm always reading your posts when they show up. Hope things are going better for you *hugs*

[samemaha]

Those dont sound like golden girl quotes... well.. maybe Betty White.. but no one else.

I understand about the feelings coming out after the death of your father. And I say DEFINATELY quit pushing those to the side.

[cunninggod]

LOL - only the "thank you for being a friend" was from Golden Girls...from the theme song. The rest is from a Metallica song, although you're right, it does sound like something Betty White would say :)

It's been only the anger that I was pushing aside, I just couldn't make myself be angry about it. Now that I'm seeing what a rough place my mom is in with him being gone that the anger is coming through.

[samemaha]

Lurch,

I lost my stepda in May 2010 and my dad in October 2010. So, when I say I know what you are going through, I mean it. My mum and I still aren't over my stepda. I don't remember how yours died... and I am REALLY sorry you had to expierence that pain. And I'm sorry you're experiencing anger now. Let yourself BE angry for a few. You need to give yourself time to heal, honey.

[cunninggod]

I'm sorry for your double loss, you're right - it's hard to get over, I wonder if I ever will.

Dad died three days after a successful lung transplant. They have no idea why we lost him, nothing stood out on the autopsy. I am working on facing the anger and letting it pass through me so I can continue healing.

Thank you for sharing and understanding. Your comment is helping me today.

[pukkalicious]

I am here. I read everything you post and enjoy being a part of your journey. I sent you a message on facebook -- We should do something soon. It has been literally years and now that I'm back in the area, it would be great to reconnect.