Damn it, I need to use this thing more

[cunninggod]

Within the last week or so, a couple of people that I follow on here started posting again.  I really need to do the same.  Shit is swirling around in my head, and sometimes I can't make heads or tails of it.  I've done a couple of private posts, and that has helped somewhat.  Therapy has helped me a lot, and now with the upcoming one year

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[samemaha]

Those dont sound like golden girl quotes... well.. maybe Betty White.. but no one else.

I understand about the feelings coming out after the death of your father. And I say DEFINATELY quit pushing those to the side.

[cunninggod]

LOL - only the "thank you for being a friend" was from Golden Girls...from the theme song. The rest is from a Metallica song, although you're right, it does sound like something Betty White would say :)

It's been only the anger that I was pushing aside, I just couldn't make myself be angry about it. Now that I'm seeing what a rough place my mom is in with him being gone that the anger is coming through.

[samemaha]

Lurch,

I lost my stepda in May 2010 and my dad in October 2010. So, when I say I know what you are going through, I mean it. My mum and I still aren't over my stepda. I don't remember how yours died... and I am REALLY sorry you had to expierence that pain. And I'm sorry you're experiencing anger now. Let yourself BE angry for a few. You need to give yourself time to heal, honey.

[cunninggod]

I'm sorry for your double loss, you're right - it's hard to get over, I wonder if I ever will.

Dad died three days after a successful lung transplant. They have no idea why we lost him, nothing stood out on the autopsy. I am working on facing the anger and letting it pass through me so I can continue healing.

Thank you for sharing and understanding. Your comment is helping me today.

[samemaha]

I've found best to... cry when I feel as though I need to.. 2 minutes of crying, or a horrid day....

Scream when you have to. Go to your car if necessary. I generally scream through my keyboard... I type AUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! GROOOOOOOWWWWWLLLLL SNARL (DEEP BREATH IN ) AUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

On top of making me laugh, it helps.

Now I'm off to work.