i dont know why but i just can't sit still. i'm just so antsy and nothing is appealing enough to get it to stop. there's just so many anxieties in my head and i'm just thinking about them all at once. they're probably common but the fact that i cant stop thinking about them makes them worse. i cant stop thinking about the soccer season, the ( Read more... )

home from workcamp and exhausted. i'm tired enough to go to bed now but i cant bring myself to go there so i thought i'd write in here instead. the week wasnt as i had expected it would be even though things were run differently and i didnt really get the same feel for it as i had the past 2 years. i certainly got a lot out of it in an unexpected ( Read more... )

amazing

i've boarded up the windows ( Read more... )

don't be scared of anything at all ( Read more... )

so a fun night last night. went over to emily's to see her and bryn. walking in they scared the shit out of me though by hiding in a car. i ran. fast. they're such nice friends. lit sparklers, had a nice acoustic session which consisted of relient k and eminem, and had an interesting conversation. ill just leave it at that. it felt like summer and ( Read more... )

rain. for the sixth weekend in a row ( Read more... )

summer unfolded like a tapestry
and you were there as you have always been

there glowing where the sky meets with the trees
air softly crowing, singing fears to sleep

will you ever know how much I love you for that?
will you ever know how much I love you?

so yeah, the future is coming, ready or not, and i most certainly am not. thursday and friday are my college days: uvm and st. michael's on thursday and university of new england and st. joe's on friday. i'm pretty sure we're squeezing keene state in there too. i know that college is over a year away and i keep telling myself that but i cant help ( Read more... )

this is a revelation for me; having me be completely happy with every aspect of my life right now. everything is just so neating entwined with each other making up something that i cant help but marvel at. everything is in it's place and i feel so complete; i love someone more than i thought possible and this person continues to amaze me with ( Read more... )