i have an egg on my head. hm, i wonder where that came from.
home from workcamp and exhausted. i'm tired enough to go to bed now but i cant bring myself to go there so i thought i'd write in here instead. the week wasnt as i had expected it would be even though things were run differently and i didnt really get the same feel for it as i had the past 2 years. i certainly got a lot out of it in an unexpected way by taking what was given and turning it into something that i could gain from. but every year it is always so uplifting to put all of your effort into helping restore a home with 5 other strangers and see the outcome of such work. there's no pay for your work but the look on your residents face when they see what you've done is priceless. who knew that you had the power to change someone's life forever. it's things like workcamp that make me feel useful. at times i'll wonder what is it i'm supposed to do to feel like i'm actually accomplishing something and making my time here worthwhile. sometimes you really have to go looking to find the answer. but this week i've left satisfied and knowing that whenever my resident looks in the places of her home that i have helped to restore, she'll be thinking of me and the five others who made it possible. and hopefully those that i worked beside wont forget me or the experience either. so now we're all back to the regular bustle and will be challenged to live our lives in the same way we have this past week. it's so easy to fall back to the way things were before you left. you fall back into your old habits and go back pretending to be something you're not. during a week such as this past one, everyone was free to be themselves and there was no reason to look at yourself and wish you were better in one way or another. everyone should try to make an effort such as that every day. there's so many directions this entry could go from here but i'll save you from my rambling on how the world would be a better place if ____________. all that matters at this moment is that i came home from a week of self evaluation to the people i love most and my night is complete, besides the fact that at this time i'm alone. i need to learn to realize that hello again's dont last forever and eventually those whom you reunite with have to go home.