Wow. It's been awhile since I've written on lj... I guess it's because I've been using blogspot instead. So I've been browsing through my last couple of entries and find it intriguing how much more poetic I used to be. I think I'm done with being deep and dreamy... it makes me weak and unrealistic. It hinders me from accomplishing what is important ( Read more... )

To think that i'm not vacationing here... and that I would actually be making this my permanent home for 18 months is kinda scary.

poor me... i'm hungry. and i really need a side mirror.

Goal: to stay as true to myself as possible. minimal makeup, clothes, don't do or say things I don't mean. i was pretty proud of myself last night.

So no one trusts anyone anymore these days. what's the point of it all again?

So i've been keeping busy lately... really making an effort to keep up with friends and saying bye to everyone. i honestly feel like part of me has died with a certain someone. it's like... i can't get emotionally hurt any more by anyone. i like having something to do everyday. i've been feeling really weird... i like keeping superficial ( Read more... )

note to self. i should probably not get someone i like something really chic cuz then other people are going to look. i should start doing yoga and swim. ew... so gross.

So i haven't updated livejournal in awhile... i don't have much to say. these days life's been pretty good. i have nothing much to do... just end up exploring the city, spending money on food and shopping. i've really been living like a trust fund baby and i absolutely hate it. thank God i'm not one of those people who are okay with the idea of ( Read more... )

So what do I say? nothing. when life has decided to just take a course of its own. what can you say? I'm not exactly sure what i want anymore... i need to find a new source of motivation. maybe I just need to be more lighthearted and not take myself that seriously... maybe that is the problem. i'm not as anal as I used to be... and it hasn't been ( Read more... )

I think I'm going to be shallow and fake from now on. Not to everyone of course, but I should stay that way for most people... especially till they have earned my trust. I give my trust away too easily... not good. why be so nice? Keeping it real only makes it that much more real and painful...

So I'm feeling kinda gross right now. I partially blame that $130 10 course tasting menu dinner I had at 9:15pm. So much food and so little self-control. Who on earth eats so late? Ko as a culinary experience is kind of overrated. the portion were too huge and the flavors weren't exactly balanced. A lot of flavors weren't able to balance each other ( Read more... )