i love finally having a secret.

wow. we definitly had a talk tonight.

i told him in my horrible inadvertant non-to-the-point way that i like him. i wanted to know what he was thinking the other night. so now i have a clearer image, but far from what i hope it turns out to be.

really i don't understand guys. they'll be all over you, then leave ya and go out with someone else. haha. weirdness.

so yeah. it's a dull night like usual. i wish i was somewhere else, but what can i do? i wish i was skinny. then i wouldn't have this problem. on that note, no more food for ika!

wow. i finally have time to sit down and write about the new york trip, work, and last night ( Read more... )

if you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today ( Read more... )

wow. i finally realize what a loser i am. i'm in love, yes i said love, with a guy i can never have. he'll be all touchy feely, almost kissed, but then not even really talk to me today. i feel like i'm taking crazy pills or something. i'm like upset that he's downstairs hangin out with this ugly girl, but wait, she's skinny. ah, i get it now. guys ( Read more... )

i randomly realized that when i started this journal ages ago, i made it shepherd's colors. haha. on that note. SLEEPY TIME!

holy shit. today has finally made it here. it's jeff's 19th birthday and we're headin to the strip club tonight. it's gonna be sheer insanity considering i'm the only chick and i'm going with about ten guys. plus i'm meeting jeff's best friend from high school doug. and i'm nervous as SHIT ( Read more... )

wow. i think tonight was probably just an amazing night. and it was a sober night. i know you all think i'm an alcoholic, oh, but i am NOT. started out the evening playing risk with two of the guy RAs and alex. i had control of half the world, but i forgot the rules cause i'm so sick, so they killed me. then we got pizza. i came up here for a few ( Read more... )

wow. ok, it's been fuckin forever and a day since i've written in here. and the only reason i remembered is because erika just reminded me ( Read more... )