Tobias died today ( Read more... )

I'm growing up...weird.

Every single time it breaks my heart, but I never do anything to make him mine.

always fucking up

I'll never get ahead.

There is no need to apologize. You did nothing wrong. My feelings were never hurt, if you could even say that I had any to hurt. I tried, I worked for it, I put in all I had, but I just never had the heart for it in the first place.
You just pulled your foot out of the door I as trying to push closed.

I'm inconsistent, and it annoys me. Sometimes I'm shy/awkward and sometimes I never shut up and nothing scares me. I'm constantly changing my mind and my mood shifts throughout the day like crazy. I can't decided what I want to do or who I want to be or what I think...I don't have opinions anymore, except negative, and I can't back them up/explain ( Read more... )

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:) Happy.

I love that Tobias just wants to be in my presence and stare at me, and he's happy.
At the same time I hate it because I wanna cuuudddllleee :(