I've been inspired to rediscover and redevote myself to the things that make me tick, because for so long it was him and for so long it was prescrition pills and now it's just life in general ( Read more... )

I'm not sure if I went to space yesterday or whatever the equivilent to heaven would be for those who believe solely in science. I acquired beautiful things to match the pretty thoughts in my head. Faced a fear that came true in a way and experienced something that actually needed a word invented for it to describe acurately - "hibadibifabada ( Read more... )

Mother is questioning whether I need to be institutionalized because for the first time in a long time, I am completely and utterly deliriously happy ( Read more... )

I said, "Don't worry I don't have a heart anymore." And he looked me dead in the eyes and straight through my walls and into my soul with those ice blue eyes. He whispered, "Yes you do, sweetheart, because I've seen it." And he proved me wrong, because that place in my chest that I thought was just an empty space, it hurts like hell. This wasn't ( Read more... )

I don't know what to feel, so I want to feel nothing.

 I remember thinking in highschool "this town is a fucking blackhole and I can't wait to get out of here".

But somewhere between now and then, it swallowed my heart.

 It's when you have nothing you start to appreciate the things you never knew you had in the first place.

 As of right now I'm not dead or behind bars.

So heres to life and living it.

NOTE TO SELF: Don't fool yourself into thinking things can't get any worse, because they will.

And you'll always be so sure your world is coming to an end, but you'll barely survive despite your best efforts.

In light of recent events I thought I'd go back to the beginning in search of some sort of clarity ( Read more... )