I just want to die. There is no reason for me to stay here and to watch everything becoming worse until it goes to absolute shit. I do a lot just to help other people out, but now I think it's my turn. Here's my big pay-off, a one-way trip to the endless summer in the sky. All I need is a quiet place to do it in, and probably a tarp to keep the ( Read more... )

My mood swings are getting bad. Like being-with-Scruffy bad, but for no damn good reason. Yes, I am taking care of a lot of things right now due to only having one car for four people. That's not what's been freaking me out. Life is very good right now, but little things will send me into irrational rages that spiral into shame from my ( Read more... )

Perception is a tainted image ( Read more... )

Thank you.
Thank you for my epiphanies and evolutions towards the person I've always wanted to be.
Thank you for the ability to know what I want without knowing it, and the sense to follow that instinct.
Thank you for helping me to help myself,
And not really caring like I sound like a fucking self-help book.

Alright, to say the least, in the duration of my absence of said bitching-journal I have learned many things. I have grown a lot. I have learned who my friends are (though that doesn't mean I've lost any) and I have learned more about myself, which is weird ( Read more... )

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Nate, I don't want us to date anymore. I'm not expecting you to understand it or like it or like me to spite it, but if I go on pushing and trying for a relationship you are so haphazard with, haphazard with me I'll find myself in a position comparable to where I was with Scruffy. Don't feed me your whines of your inner anguish, either, I know ( Read more... )

Leave Me ALONE.

Your Existing Situation
Needs, and insists on having, a close and understanding relationship, or at least some method of satisfying a compulsion to feel identified.

Your Stress SourcesThe existing situation is disagreeable. Feels lonely and uncertain as she has an unsatisfied need to ally herself with others whose standards are as ( Read more... )

My life is comparable to repeatedly beating one's head into the wall ( Read more... )

Giggling to spite herself,
--Suzzie