Thanksgiving put me off track. I got a little down because I had joined a community challenge, posted my weight, but for some reason was disqualified and now I don't have that motivation to keep me going. That had really, really helped me stay on track ( Read more... )

So when I started restricting again not long ago - (Monday? Sunday?) I weighed 237.8. As of this morning I weighed 228.8. Not bad for a week's work or slightly less than a week. I feel awful though because Mom MADE me go out to dinner with her tonight and I had fish and chips. I feel so full and disgusting. I hate this feeling .. I remember it well ( Read more... )

I just binged again .. this is the 2nd night in a row. I didn't mean to but I came home and there were the fixings for nachos on the counter .. and I had 2 bowls. I'd had like 700 calories before that and now .. well who knows. How in the fuck am I ever going to be skinny .. WTF is wrong with me?

Well today was a little hard .. I actually went over calories and had 810 calories. I know it was a 700 day but I just couldn't help it. I was in total binge mode but instead of binging on pizza or burger and fries I had a baked potato with 1/4 cheese. I made it a kind of healthy binge .. and instead of coming up 1000 calories in the hole I'm only ( Read more... )

Down -4.4 lbs this week so that's a total of 22. At least it's a start....

I've been sooooooo good the last several days. I haven't eaten a lot and I've finally started getting in my water. 2-3 liters of water a day and 2-3 liters of ice tea a day when I just can't STAND another drop of water lol Have I lost? Not an OUNCE! WTF? Does my body need to adjust to this water or what? Anyone else ever experienced this?

So today was my 5th weigh in since restriction started again and I've lost 9 lbs. I was a little disappointed because I only lost .4 today but oh well..it's something. I can't wait for the XBox to get here so that I can start working out again.

This being sick has been really icky. But at least the family hasn't questioned why I'm not eating a lot

Yes I am sick. Been sick since yesterday and today it's even worse. I don't think I'll be going into work tomorrow ( Read more... )

Ok so I was supposed to start restriction again on the 26th but that hasn't worked. I'm trying to be smart about this this time. My mental state is the same but I dont want to lose 10 lbs either and have my folks or Brian notice and get all over my ass again ( Read more... )

Ok so I have got to do something about my weight again. The minute everyone was watching me I started packing on the pounds again and lost all of my will and determination. Still, that was 2 years ago so I'm sure if I start slowly I can do this and they wont' notice..at least until it doesn't really matter as much. I just have to remember to get my ( Read more... )