this is done.
goodbye

today was a repeat of yesterday though I was at work an hour and a half longer and I got two hours less sleep ( Read more... )

I'm getting back into the swing of things ( Read more... )

it was the most vivid dream I've had in quite sometime. we were back in east northport, a place you'd never know without me. we were walking quickly as if to get away from something I had my left arm around you and we were talking. I could feel your skin, your ribs. everything about you was correct, exactly how I remember it. we were walking ( Read more... )

So from here on out I'm not writing to anyone in particular at any point in time this is being used as what it is, a journal. feel free to read it if you'd like if you don't that's fine too. some of what I write may be offensive, some of it my strike a chord within, but whatever I write is for no one but myself. I'm not concerned with what ( Read more... )

it's scary but true ( Read more... )

I lied... tis 3:09am I'm wide awake... and drunk(what a fucking suprise)
its funny I don't know why I've been pretending so long anyway. I'm fucking weak its easy to see.

It's 1:43 am and I just got home from work. I'm tired, no exhausted, both physically and mentally.

I hate that I'm doing it but I've given up. sad but true blah blah blah wah wah wah.

goodnight.

fuck it

*it's almost comical because I write to no one in specific, I write to clear my mind and help maintain my sanity. but in this post the fist half is written to no one in specific and the second half is written to everyone out here who likes to talk shit, who likes to spew filth I'm just sick of the bullshit. its time to man up ( Read more... )