a good friend once told me the biggest mistake we can make is thinking we're alive when really we're
*it's almost comical because I write to no one in specific, I write to clear my mind and help maintain my sanity. but in this post the fist half is written to no one in specific and the second half is written to everyone out here who likes to talk shit, who likes to spew filth I'm just sick of the bullshit. its time to man up
the eloquence of words just isn't enough anymore. words alone aren't enough anymore though perhaps action itself is not enough anymore. I thought that I had proven myself through action time and time again. maybe I'm not the best with spoken word or the best at spewing filth into ears, twisting words and manipulating situations. I shouldn't have to do any of that anyway. my actions and the path I chose to take, that alone should prove who I am, how I feel and that I'm not one out for myself. for a long time I lived my life that way and what did it get me? nothing but hurt, nothing but pain and suffering but I chose to do that to myself. I also chose to get myself the fuck out of all that. I can separate myself entirely from all that surrounds me , I can be apathetic I can be uncaring. I'm capable of things I'm not going even going to divulge into because the fact of the matter is that that's really not what important. you chose the course your own life will take and no other. your past is your past for a reason and instead of looking back on lifes trail in remembrance or looking backing and wondering what went wrong and then trying to fix those things. I don't want to cast stones and sound hypocritical but fact of the matter is this shouldn't have happened and what did happen is still in the present I don't live in my past anymore I don't preach my past I don't push shit on anyone, but ill push this on you til I die.
I wish more people would read this, though most of who I'd like to read this which I am writing right here and now are those who only have there own personal gains and wants in the minds eye, they're individuals who try to manipulate situations to better their own self image and make me look bad. to you, and I hope to god some of you have found the means to read this, I say come the fuck at me, I won't back down this time, I'm done being nice. you want to play fucking games we can play. I'm feelin' froggy so jump.
the eloquence of words just isn't enough anymore. words alone aren't enough anymore though perhaps action itself is not enough anymore. I thought that I had proven myself through action time and time again. maybe I'm not the best with spoken word or the best at spewing filth into ears, twisting words and manipulating situations. I shouldn't have to do any of that anyway. my actions and the path I chose to take, that alone should prove who I am, how I feel and that I'm not one out for myself. for a long time I lived my life that way and what did it get me? nothing but hurt, nothing but pain and suffering but I chose to do that to myself. I also chose to get myself the fuck out of all that. I can separate myself entirely from all that surrounds me , I can be apathetic I can be uncaring. I'm capable of things I'm not going even going to divulge into because the fact of the matter is that that's really not what important. you chose the course your own life will take and no other. your past is your past for a reason and instead of looking back on lifes trail in remembrance or looking backing and wondering what went wrong and then trying to fix those things. I don't want to cast stones and sound hypocritical but fact of the matter is this shouldn't have happened and what did happen is still in the present I don't live in my past anymore I don't preach my past I don't push shit on anyone, but ill push this on you til I die.
I wish more people would read this, though most of who I'd like to read this which I am writing right here and now are those who only have there own personal gains and wants in the minds eye, they're individuals who try to manipulate situations to better their own self image and make me look bad. to you, and I hope to god some of you have found the means to read this, I say come the fuck at me, I won't back down this time, I'm done being nice. you want to play fucking games we can play. I'm feelin' froggy so jump.