I just read through a majority of my entries 5 years after writing them. I make fun of high school kids who act like that!

One thing I have discovered and attempt to deal with is the feeling of never being good enough. Throughout my entries I apologize for my feelings, I'm unclear and unproductive. Now I am typically the same way in my journal ( Read more... )

i decided to cut this part out of my life unless i found a song i liked lol. i went on a good trip this weekend- definitely more self realization and it's great. i love God... alot and i hope he changes me more because i'm still disappointed in everything i've become except the part that he's in. yeah. i hope the best for you and i hope you all ( Read more... )

wow, and i think i have it rough
i dont even have a career yet!

i'd rather live my life right now not worrying about making any mistakes and live with the regrets later- cause down the road i'll feel sheltered and crappy, instead of just plain crappy.

*i'm sorry i'm so mixed up
i'm sorry
i didn't know i'd feel this way
or miss you the way i am
but please just give me the comfort i want
much less deserve*

but neither am i ( Read more... )

'..trying my hardest to trust you... you've got me there where you want, don't throw this all away '

danget i screwed up again.

*Growing up we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll fight with friends. Fall in love with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.You'll cry because time is passing so fast and you' ( Read more... )

wooooooooooow
i love life!
yeah?

*EDIT: i regret it. the thing i did that -luckily- didn't screw me over.little did i know that this would be the day that would start something that would eventually change me. and i loved it.
last 4 days = a.m.a.z.i.n.g.

+i just got back from indiana

+i missed 2 days of school

+i'm finally proud to be in colorguard

+i love paisley bcuz of our 52 ( Read more... )

i just wanna say that MARC is a great friend. and so is KELLEY! and ANDREW makes me happy. even though we're both confused about... well.. alot lol. i'm so indecisive that it makes things hard

( this is me )