that hurt.

fun weekend.

bad weekend-end. i mean, it was a good sunday. but it wasnt a good sunday.

whatever.

maybe its just the process...

whatever. at least i'm gaining weight...finally. time to start working out some more.

night.

-matt

tonight i started reading "putting amazing back into grace" by mike horton. i think i read too much for my first night...and it was only about 30 pages. i got so much information, so many new thoughts ( Read more... )

i am such a sinner ( Read more... )

hmm okay so i somehow found out how to make a private entry...one that only i can read...but i can't find it...i probably have to be logged in. anyway ( Read more... )

i feel sick. i dont know whether to cry my heart out or curse God. yeah im pretty much a mess right now. outwardly im fine. on the inside...a freakin a-bomb went off ( Read more... )

so tonight my mind underwent a serious spiritual beating. i was faced with the question, "am i really saved?" how do you answer that question? i don't know. something i've been struggling with lately is complacency, and a lack of desire to be with God. i've realized that most of the time i am seeking self-satisfaction in worship. i want to ( Read more... )

okay well I decided that I probably won't stop posting on LJ because i think it really stimulates my mind. i love to sit here and ponder things and put my thoughts down. and then have other people read them. it's different from a personal journal, cuz that's all stuff you don't want other people to see ( Read more... )

ok first off, i totally had this entry finished, and then i somehow deleted it all....so now im really pissed off cuz i had a lot of good stuff in there i think. so i will do my best to recreate now ( Read more... )

i thought about typing out the lyrics to another song here, but i decided, why steal someone else's glory? if you're at all interested, "yesterday's feelings" by the used ( Read more... )

i dont know what my problem is. i dont even know who i am anymore ( Read more... )