i had several options this evening. a saturday night in the life of a high school senior, with a car, 18 years old, single and ready to mingle (yeah right). i could have gone to disneyland with a group of friends. i could have hung out with another group at someone's house. or i could have gone with my best friend to a group of people i dont ( Read more... )

so, well, i dont know why im updating my journal. i mean, i have plenty on my mind right now, but for some reason i just dont feel like posting it. funny how i used to update like every night, during the summer and beginning of the school year...now i dont know. maybe i'll just do a stream of consciousness thing, and let you figure out whats on ( Read more... )

so today i had a thought. what is regret? and what have i done or said that i might regret ( Read more... )

have you ever had such a good, sweet, peaceful, exciting, fun time that you just never wanted to end ( Read more... )

alright well its been a lil over a week since my last update. i cant decide if the week has been hell or just not fun. i dunno. and i dunno why im writing this cuz nobody ever reads it ( Read more... )

well christmas break is over and i dont know how i feel about that. i guess i kinda want to get back to normal, contrary to what i said in myspace. i dont know i guess. i really miss kristen. that is what was missing this break ( Read more... )

yeh right. happy? bull.

i think i am ready to give up. i cant take this crap anymore.

so this is gonna be one of those weird look-into-my-mind journals. i feel really strange. so my last entry had to do with my academy nomination. that is serious big-time no-bull stuff. and then there are some other things going on in my life that make me wonder, what the hell is going on ( Read more... )

okay so here's the deal: i got nominated to the naval academy. about 2000 other people also are nominated to the naval academy. worldwide. only 1200 people are officially appointed to the academy. so my chance of getting there are much better, but it's still a challenge. anyway, i'm stoked, this application process has taken a year of my life ( Read more... )

well i am tired yet wired tonight. very weird. not sure why ( Read more... )