I have been questioning myself a lot lately. Despite being constantly told that I am smart, or that I am confident, or a leader, I feel insufficient and insignificant. I have been burdened with the blessing of expectation and hence been stuck with worrying about fulfilling them. My stress is manifesting itself in a silenced personal breakdown that ( Read more... )

So, as of right now I am packing up clothes and supplies to last me a week for my adventure to Ohio when I'm done with work tomorrow to go see my best friend since 3rd grade become a married man. This forces the question: "When did I become so old ( Read more... )

It seems odd that I'm now finding myself back at this journal tonight...I haven't really paid it much attention since I started going to college. I guess the fact that I'm home has subconciously lured me to this site seeing as how most of my days I spent writing in this journal took place in the very basement I am sitting in currently.  Classes are ( Read more... )

So it's pretty much spring now. Winter came and passed in a way that makes me feel like I never would have noticed it had I never looked for it from the start. These months have gone by much quicker than I would have ever anticipated and somehow I feel like I have accomplished next to nothing in all of this time. The days seem to kind of meld ( Read more... )

So, I'm back at school for another semester. Another session. Seems like the same old song and dance by now. Semester #3...good stuff. I actually promised myself that I would to my best ability to to the gym about 4 times a week. I don't know why I am writing that of all things in my livejournal considering there is a metaphorical black hole in the ( Read more... )

As much as I try, I can't shake being labeled. In different points of my life I have been labeled as a skater, a band nerd, and a frisbee stoner, respectively. Unfortunately the most recent label I have encountered has been a tough one to shake. Every party I go to...every person I meet....every conversation I get into.....

"OH! YOU'RE THE GUY WHO ( Read more... )

So I was driving down North Point Road today, and I got stopped at every light. Not just the kind of stopping where there is a lot of traffic and you deal with it, but the kind where I am one of the few cars on the road and every light turn yellow when I was within viewing distance of the light. Most frustrating was the fact that I was the front ( Read more... )

I went to church on Sunday, and while leaving the sermon we were all given mini waterguns. Out of the pure excitement of receiving a free watergun, my roommate,  suitemates, and I completely forgot what exactly it was supposed to be a metaphor for and used them to spray each other. Eventually we decided that they are to be used to spray sinners. ( Read more... )

Yeah, it has indeed been quite some time since my last post. This should be fun....

What all has happened for those of you who don't keep in touch with me? Well, for one, I turned 20 a few weeks ago. There were celebrations taken in the form of cake, frisbee golf, presents, and alcohol. All in all, I suppose it was a pretty decent birthday. I have ( Read more... )

So I dropped Taylor off lastnight at her house at about 11, and on my way home I saw my neighborhood...but I didn't turn in. I kept driving. I did not know where I was going or what I was doing. I was just driving. It didn't take long to realize that my midnight drive seemed to be pointing me towards I-85, which would lead up to Clemson. Eventually ( Read more... )