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coqri

Brighter than sunshine

Apr 19, 2010 17:01

So Ryan and I are doing something different with our relationship that drops the titles "boyfriend and girlfriend" and absolves most of the responsibilities with it. We still love each other and want to be together, but the pressure that has been mounting for five years now has gotten to be too much and we need to cut it out while we still are in ( Read more... )

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placetohide April 20 2010, 09:12:21 UTC

Good luck at the doctor's! D: That sounds pretty scary.

coqri April 21 2010, 00:16:59 UTC

Thanks, it is pretty horrifying, especially since I really can't handle anything that alters your state of mind...AUGH

mariecat April 20 2010, 11:43:15 UTC

"twilight" state made me giggle, cause i thought of them covering you in glitter ( ... )

coqri April 21 2010, 00:16:34 UTC

I appreciate your advice :) I'm sure you know, being the oldest often makes you a lonely person who is always giving the advice :(

I see all of that too, but I am forced to be biased and see of the wonderful things he has done too, including loving me very much.

There is a lot that needs to be worked on, and currently it's really really rough to just suddenly find myself lost in this unknown future. I really like planning, and not know what's going to happen freaks me out more (I think) than the actual not being together part.

It was a pretty d-bag move doing all this right before he leaves for Hawaii, but being as he lives 160 miles away we had to do it then : /

I'm hoping everything works out alright in the end, but mostly I just want to be happy and not stressed out. I'm hoping he will change the way HE wants to, and not just the way I wish he would.

Thanks again Marie, I hope we'll get to see each other when you come back home! I'm sorry your problems are worse off than mine and I don't have much to say to you for advice :